I had loads of doubts when it came to this book. The Storyline looked good enough to be an amazing book but i feared it was not going to be original enough. There is a ton of stories about damaged girls with problems of commitment and their "dark" saviour, that have the "Love at first sight" romance. But S.L Jennings blew me away with this book, it's well written and smartly conceived so it doesn't seem too ordinary but it's real enough to bring us close to the characters and learn with them.
Kami has been through hell and back since she was a small child. She's a twenty-three-year-old woman that's still afraid of the dark and runs away from masses of water, all because of her abuses as a child. She knows she is incapable of love so when a bartender sees behind the mask she puts on, she feels trapped. Kami is afraid of what that love may do to her, what can it turn her in and she has the constant fear of having her heart broken again. But with the help of loyal friends who understand her and Blaine, she will have to face her fears and battle them...
***Inspired by true events*** I hoped this is was not true but unfortunately it happens more regularly than we think. It makes me sad that anybody has to go through this. But i am also hoping that whoever this was inspired in can find a happy ending just like kami did!
Funny thing about life is that it never turns out the way you want it to. It’s never fair. It’s harsh and brutal. It kicks you when you’re down. It makes you wish you could give up and part with it just to have a semblance of peace.
Kami is a fighter and i have never read about a story so real as hers. She was a character that moved you from the start until the end, but i never felt an ounce of pity for her. I felt pride, because after all this she still tried to overcome her fears, she was not some frail little thing that needed to be saved because she fought her nightmares away. Though it was a bit frustrating when she met Blaine because she kept pushing him away and of course there were time i wanted to shake her and tell her to "Be happy with him you crazy girl" but i kept my cool. Otherwise, she was amazing to read about and she is definitely a role model to so many girls and women out there because she will show you hope and urge you to battle your fears like a badass...
“This isn't some illness I can just take medicine to get rid of, Dom. You of all people should know that. This. Is. Me. My situation isn't fucked up. I’m fucked up. Completely, irrevocably, fucked up to my core.”
I loved Blaine with his patience with Kami and his perseverance to not let her go no matter what. He protected her even though she told him to f*ck off quite a few times... His character was so well constructed, with him living with a esquizofrenic mother when he was just a child and then having to see her killed, it was sad as well and very real. But I loved his honesty and commitment. And he wasn't bad to look at either... ^.^
Dom and Angel!! I adored them so much! They brought the funny element to this book even though they had their problems to deal with. I would like to see a book just about either of them... They cracked me up most of the times and i loved to see their relationship with Kami and how much they relied on one another.
A lesbian rocker, an insatiable man-whore and a notorious commitment-phobe, all under one roof.
This is not a happy book, I'm telling you! It's sad and it will make you cry your heart out and want to do some real damage to some people. But even though its sad it has a good message that it that if you keep your eyes open love can heal every wound your heart has. But also ( and the most important one ) to never give up on yourself, no matter what other people may say.
S.L Jennings is an amazing writer and this is the first book i've read from her, but from now on i am curious if she pours this much heart on her future novels...